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I'm going to be gone this whole weekend. My mom is having me take some test for the state. I don't even know why she wants me to take it. I have to hear her baw about how the state cut two days of pay every month. This test is for the position of an Office Assistant.

I don't even know why they have people take a test for the position of an Office Assistant. Unless they've had morons apply before? All I know about the test is that it's some easy stuff. I'm pretty sure a 7th grader could pass it. That's another thing, my mom is telling me to study for the test. I'm like alskdjlakjsdlk how the hell do I study for some test I know nothing about.

I don't remember anything telling me about what would on the test during the application process. I just know that when my mom was preparing to take her Office Technician (this is next level from Office Assistant) test she stole my high school exit exam study guides. Not like I needed them because an 8th grader is able to pass that test and we take it in 10th.

Anyway, I'm just more like wtf over this whole test business. I've tried doing what my mom has told me before. She told me to apply for Six Flags, I did. I was hired on the spot and then I get the news that they're only open on the weekend in the fall and winter. Now I'm going to take this test, pass, and then I won't hear anything back about job position until like 3 months for now. My mom told me that it takes 4 to 6 weeks to get the results back from the test. This whole thing is ridiculous.

I think the real reason why I'm bothered about this whole thing is that we're staying at her friend's house for two nights. It's going to be extremely awkward. Then my mom is telling me that if a position opens up near where her friend lives and I get hired that I could move in with him so I'll be closer. That's just really really really weird.

I'm thinking my mom just wants to get rid of me or something, which she can't. Believe me, I'm in the same boat as her. I want to GTFO out of this place but I can't because I have to baby sit my mom. I can't fucking wait until I get to move back to my grandparents' house. What would be even better would be getting an apartment with my friends. The latter is probably never going to happen but I can dream!

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I'll start off by posting the lyrics to The Deeper Vileness by Dir en Grey. 

I have fun listening to your lies...
I shout out joy and you shout for help
Fuck! I hate you!
Dear God, You're a MOTHERFUCKER
Death for All. Death for All
I'm your worst nightmare
Fuck off! I wanna die!

I don't even think of you as my friend

You deceived me and sold me out
Take off that mask of rectitude!
Pretender that hurts one's eyes,
voice that jars on one's ear

Fuck 'em all without a care
Fake rock wannabies... just die

I don't even think of you as my friend

The maze, it's so cold
I'll die in a world of lies and deceits

By tomorrow I'll be in despair
It was destined

I have fun listening to your lies...
I shout out joy and you shout for help
Fuck! I hate you!
Dear God, You're a MOTHERFUCKER
Death for All. Death for All
I'm your worst nightmare,
Fuck off! I wanna die!

I don't even think of you as my friend

The maze, it's so cold
I'll die in a world of lies and deceits

Let's have a moment of silence to take in the lyrics ...  
I believe that's enough time to reflect over those words. 
If you don't know by now where this is going you're fucking stupid and you fail at life due to fact that you're a fucking retard. 

There is a particular line that sticks out to me, 'Take of that mask of rectitude!' -- this is really what this whole mini-rant boils down to. I really hate it when people act like they have high morals and self-righteous when they really aren't. Hypocrisy doesn't go down well in my books. I am aware of the fact that most people are hypocritical but I believe that there are limits as to how much a person can condradict one's self. 

Maybe it's just a political thing? hint hint hint

I just suppose I'll never understand how some people think. For instance, some girls adamantly claim that they're not desperate for a guy, then they go off flirting with everything that has a penis. It gets really hilarious when they complain about not having a beau. Then they go on about how much they would like for a guy to just come up to them and make some sort of declaration about some shit. 

Can someone please tell me how fantasizing about dating some random theoretical guy does not lead to 'not desperate' about wanting a boyfriend? This isn't a big issue, but it's annoying. Little annoyances tend to pile upon eachother and then they become VERY fucking annoying. I'm not going to waste my time all at once explaining all the little things I find annoying about people. 

I can go on and get more indepth about people that are down right hypocrites and explain my thoughts about it, but I'm not. The song itself was enough to explain my views, but I'm dramatically less angry about it. As much as I like to complain and rant about random shit for fun, I'd rather not think any further about how much this actually pisses me off. I would like to very much believe that there is some tiny sliver of hope in people.

tl;dr  i fucking hate people that are fake
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First I want to start off by saying -- FUCK THAT SHIT annnnd I DON'T GIVE A FUCKING DAMN. 

Short overview:
I was marked off the appointment sheet.
I wasn't officially marked off because the teacher has to OK it. 
I didn't know this but I informed the rececptionist that I was no longer taking clients. 
Teacher gave me absent person's clients.
Teacher sucks, clients sucks, they're all on crack. 
I left. 
Not enough people to take clients. 
I'm a bitch, yeys! 

All the facts told from my point of view but not in order of the overview:
You know, my class isn't so bad. I'm only there for 6 hours a day, five days a week, and I have to stay there for 600 hours and complete various credits, booklets, and modules. Once we've completed all our credits on that ugly little yellow timecard we can be taken off the appointment sheet. We can also just be scheduled for wax and make-up only if we we're not finished with those credits when we complete our facial credits. I happen to be in the latter category.

Last week I had asked Marii to mark me off the appointment sheet and that I wouldn't be taken any clients. I had my shit taken care of. I figured that I have enough of those scary ass diagrams in the stupid make-up booklet to complete for my make-up credits, so I'm cool on that. I'm not lying either, I'm avoiding those diagrams as much as I can. Scary diagrams are scary. All the drawings of those faces on the diagrams look like ladies that are/were coked out and are/were in prison. Scary ass shit man, I get nightmares when I look at them. You better thank god that I don't have a scanner cause I would have totally put pictures of that shit for all of you to see. Well ... I think the nightmarishness of it would break my computer so I am also thankful that I don't have a scanner. 

Getting back on topic ... I also have four more waxing assignments in my senior module and I think it would be enough for me to complete my waxing credits. If not, I can use the wax in my kit, or the wax Betsie left for us to use, and do a quick eyebrow or upper-lip wax on somebody in class. Since I just want to focus on those make-up diagrams, waxing, and senior module, I wanted to be completely taken off the appointment sheet. However, Elena, Anabel, and Evelyn didn't show up for class. Mrs. Railey gave me Evelyn's clients. FUCK THAT SHIT so I left when the client came in. 

Frankly, I'm fucking DONE -- D - O - N - E -- DONE with clients all together until I work in a salon and get paid for being treated like crap and dealing with psycho clients. I don't care if there aren't enough people to take the clients, it's not my problem. I know I'm being a bitch and totally selfish but I'm not getting paid for this. I gain NOTHING by taking this client. The last two weeks of Febuary I had some crazy ass clients who wanted to change in the middle of clinic, complained about a water-based gel mask being too cold, complained about the room being too cold, complained that they were running late then they bust out a curling iron after their facial to do their hair and etc. etc. etc.  

I've been taking clients since mid-November and I started my class mid-August. I just want to hurry up and get my ass out of this fucking class. Thanks to the vacations it's taking me longer to complete the class. The teacher isn't bad but she's crazy. She's just so scattered brained and doesn't really inform us about what we're supposed to do and what's going on. 

I just found out today that we have to ask the teacher if we can be taken off the appointment sheet. Marii told her that I asked to be taken off, and bless Marii because she marked me of for this week and next week. However, Mrs. Railey told Marii AND NOT ME that we have to ask her first to be taken off. WTF IS UP WITH THAT SHIT?! Why couldn't she have just come to me and confronted me about wanting to be taken off the appointment sheet? She knows I want off and I'm clearly marked off, why can't she accept that? 

It's not even a matter of her not knowing that I've completed my facial credits. She signs our timecards EVERY single damn night. It would have taken her not more than 1 minute of her time to look and my facial credits and acknowledge the fact that I've completed them and then bring up the topic of being marked off the appointment sheet. This is fucking crazy, she expects me read her mind and know about all these damn unwritten rules which she may or may not have told us about. If she mentions that it's in the Skin Care Policies then FUCK YOU BITCH. The last time I read that was mid-November when I transitioned from being a freshman to a senior. I don't need to remember those useless policies because it mostly talks about when you're at the desk playing the part of the receptionist. It doesn't take much effort or direction to pick up the phone and schedule people. It's not hard, I don't even understand why there are policies about answering a fucking phone. 

I was talking to Crystal about it too, and she told me not to worry about. She did agree with me that there's all this shit about these rules that we don't about because Mrs. Railey doesn't even talk about it. We were also joking about how it's hard to talk to her in the first place. Most of the time she's doing something, giving a lecture to the freshman, and whatever the hell else she does. Sometimes you'll go to her and ask her a question and she'll just hold a finger up to you and tell you, "In a minute, I'm busy." Then you're like ooookaaaay wtf ... then she never gets back to you! There's also times when you ask her something and she'll have a blank look on her face and she's not doing anything and she'll tell you, "I'm not listening. I'm not here right now." WHAT. THE. FUCK.

I made an example and said that if I was to stab Janice (no hate against Janice, she's cool and we pick on eachother but I just said her name since she walked by) and she's bleeding all over the place and needs medical attention NOW that Mrs. Railey would just say, "Oh, tell me later. I'm in the middle of doing something. Write a note and leave it on my desk." and then Mrs. Railey wouldn't even get to note until five hours after the incident. My note that I left would say, "I stabbed Janice. Going to jail, cancel all my appointments. I'll come back in 15 years. Although, may possible be 25 to life, I'll give you call." I'm just a bit worried about tomorrow, hopefully Mrs. Railey will forget all about it. Crystal told me she'll forget about it five seconds after I've left. We now have a nickname for Mrs. Raily -- The Goldfish. Our teacher is just that bad and it really sucks. 

Damn, I'm fucking addicted to Suicide Kiss by Rolly. GET OUT OF MY HEAD! The song is eerily addictive.
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This little incident happened over the interwebz a couple weeks ago, but it still pisses me off. This girl she's a total bitch and an attention whore. She also totallyed maimed lolita with her attempt. I'm not trying to be a rori-eritist, but srsly this shit is like totally unacceptable.

Basically I'm going to just copy and paste what was posted on the forum ... my thoughts

This is the dress I bought from linglam-
I wore Lolita to school for the first time. The outfit was comfy, so where the boots. (I didn't wear the hat to school, but I did for the pictures). Most of the teachers loved it. The students where jerks.

Now for the dress itself, I have to call it "cosplay" lolita. I know, Lolita isn't a costume, but the lace is of the cheap variety (but surpisingly soft *__*), and the dress is short for Lolita. But, I was very proud and happy of the dress. I wish the bows wherevelcro instead of pinned. The pin on the back bow was badly assmbled and stabbed me in the middle of the day.
One boot is almost half a size bigger than the other. I had to stuff cotton at the top so it looked normal.
The hat is nice, light, and comfy, but the clips attaching it to my hair are cheap. One broke the moment I opened it, and it needed to be replaced.
All in all, I'll give ling lam a B-. Decent dress, satifactory shoes, good hat. So-so shipping.

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Please excuse the lack of Lolita hairstyle. I have normally frizzy hair (I straighten it all the time), and its hard to mangage when it is thick and clumpy, and I didn't know what to do, so I just let it down. 

I seriously fucking lawl'd myself to death when I saw this. Then I cried because she was trying to pass it off as lolita. I didn't know what to say about this dress. I mean seriously ... she looks like a saloon girl! I was just waiting for her to say this was a joke ... or at least to scroll down and see some pictures of her on top of a bar and doing the can-can ...

It's cute, if we disregard the fact you called it Lolita.
I'm not trying to mean, but that's just my honest opinion.

Was it nessicary to put me on GTFO EGL? Seriously. I ADMITTED it to be cosplay, CHEAP HORRIBLE, ECT!!!!
I said ALLLLLLL the things you people would have pointed out first.

WTF ... I didn't put you on GTFO EGL! Why the fuck are you asking me lady little girl? You have to be fucking retarded to the max to post cosplay lolita on EGL. Pay the consequences of your actions. Stop crying about it and get over it. 
I found out that she had posted her pictures and basically copy-and-paste the shit from EGL to a forum. Except, on EGL she said she wore her dress to school for the attention. I guess she thought she was hardcore for dressing like a dumbass at school. Then she wonders why her peers were being jerks to her. I don't believe there's another dress in the world that shouts, 'Look at me I'm a douche!' more than that lovely gem there.

People suck, the end.
You shouldn't get so worked up about it. Some people are just mean and that's the way they are. All that really matters is that you know what is wrong with the dress and that it wasn't lolita.
You seem like you have full understanding of how lolita should be done. It's just a shame that you weren't able to get a proper dress, you would have done great! 

No, I'm just hated where ever I go. Forums, schools, EGL,At home, on the streets I'M HATED.
I guess I'm just stupid. 

Ermm ... wtf? I didn't say I hated you, no one on EGL said they hated you -- they just hate your dress. I don't even know how the hell that shit came up. I'm just trying to be nice to her ... and the reason for I have no clue why ...

Have you had a bad day, or week?
I was looking on the comments you got on EGL. They didn't seem mean at all and they said that you were cute. It was basically your dress that got you on the GTFO EGL community, and that's where the mean comments came from.
Whatever is the true source of your unhappiness, I hope that the situation improves.
Don't forget that life is what you make it. If you just want to focus on the negative things then that's what it will be.

Its not improving, and somone commented on my "ugly mug"
I have self-esteem issuses as it is. I don't need you people calling me ugly.
Moar like a good week...untill yesterday night.

The people on GTFO EGL were rather nice about the whole situation. Out of about the 15 or so people that replied to her only one person was a bit rude and didn't accept the bullshit that was her excuse. Her excuse was that her family is rather tight on money and that her mom only buys stuff online that's from Ebay. This was a surprise for her from her mother and she had no clue that her mother was doing this, much less she didn't even get to pick the dress. She had admitted that she thought it was ugly but she wore it with pride for her mother. It also sounded like she rather hated the dress but didn't want to hurt her mothers feelings. 

I never said that you were ugly, and just so you know, I'm not a member of any of the lolita communities.
The reason I haven't joined one is because of all the wank that goes on in them and most of the people are rude.
If you have self-esteem issues, posting pictures of yourself on the internet doesn't seem very logical. 

Yeah ... there goes some more wtf ... she's putting words in my posts! She swears that I called her ugly and she's bunching me with lolita elitist. No matter the situation, when you say, 'You people ...' it's rather offensive. I still have no clue why I'm even bothering to be nice to her. Oh yeah, cause she's an emo-attention-whore, and a fucking retarded one at that. 
Self-esteem issues + posting picture of yourself in non-lolita clothing on EGL =

Please shape up the topic. Do NOT let this turn into an emo-fest. Remember things could always be worse, you could be on fire, and that's definitely more worse than anything.
Anyways, if the emoing and self-hate continues, I will delete this thread.

I wasn't trying to offend Pasta-Chan because I don't even think any of my posts contained anything that was offensive.
I apologize if I hurt Pasta-Chan's feelings but I wasn't intentionally trying to cause hurt.
I believe there is more to the situation than whole dress issue. Perhaps Pasta-chan just vented in the wrong place and it wasn't intentional.

The mod stepped in cause that stupid stupid stupid girl was being emo and shit. I saw in another thread that her mom hit her or something because she didn't want to eat pasta for dinner because she had already ate ... or something I don't remember the specifics ... I figured she just had a bad a day or whatever and that's why she was being stupid. 
Even after I apologized for doing NOTHING wrong to her she just ignored it. I also turned out to be the bad guy cause all the people posting in the thread don't even know what the hell lolita is and they tell her she looks cute. It's like they're encouraging her to go around parading in that organza and lace nightmare. It seriously fucking looks like a prom dress and lace fucking mated and this is their hellish offsrping. I only say prom dress because most prom dresses are made from that awful tacky organza and it keels mah eyes. 

About a week after this whole incident she tried to do a Misa cosplay. Someone tried to give her con-crit about the attempted and failed cosplay. Long story short, the person told her that her hair wasn't accurate, and she should either dye it or use a wig. Then this stupid pasta girl got all offended and said that not everyone wants to dye their hair or wear a wig just for cosplay. Umm ... that's what weeds out the good cosplayers from the bad cosplayers. Then she was also saying that the live-action movie Misa had hair that was just a shade darker than her own. Honey, that's like a shade darkerx10 -- Shorty, go fix this girl's eyes there's something wrong with her color perception. 

Helpful person then told her that they were sorry and that they should have probably lied to her next time and said everything she did was perfect. They also suggested that retarded girl should just say she was an original version of Misa. Helpful person also mentioned that they never said that retarded girl had to dye her hair. Then retarded girl got her panties in a bunch and blahblah said helpful person didn't have to be snarky ... Helpful person was really confused, apologized, wished her good luck, and never returnded. Now comes in a third person telling retarded girl that helpful person wasn't being snarky and that retarded girl needed to lighten up. Third person was really nice about it too. Retarded girl gets pissed off and said, "Subject was DROPPED, no need to bring it up again." Third person apologized and wish retarded girl luck. 

So there you have it, retarded girl is basically a teenage brat ... bitchy, bratty, attention whore   DOES NOT WANT
get out of the gene pool plz  kthx

Let this be said, not all teenagers are brats. As shocking as that is, it's true, really. 
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I like the rain, I really do. I especially like it WHEN IT'S NOT IN MY FUCKING ROOM! >O 

It's not fun having your sleep interrupted by the sound of dripping. Well, it sounds more like plip plip plip and it's annoying because it's a really slow plipping. I fucking swear that I'm going to duct tape up that crack in my ceiling. But I fear actually doing it ... a mess of dirty rain water might fall on me ... The crack doesn't scare me as much as the dented spot on the ceiling does. IT'S FULL OF RAIN WATER AND ROACHES! I KNOW IT IS! I supposed it would be water bugs and possibly some silver fish more than cockroaches ... but really, still some scary shit. 

I told my grandmother that my room was leaking again. Her response, "Aww shit! Wait, are you sure? The guy came over and fixed it last time." Then I was like wuuuut? Why are you asking me if I'm sure? Is this a trick question? Do I not have the nessecary qualifications to see water dripping out of a crack? I have fucking eyes lady! I CAN SEE THE WATER DRIP. 

Sure, she may have gotten the roof or whatever fixed. The dripping is less than it was in the previous years. Although, that could be due to that fact it hasn't been raining 24/7 for a couple of weeks. Yeah, It's been raining nearly every day for the past week, but it only rains a couple hours then it takes a break.

If it won't stop raining then I'd like to ask the douche of a crack in my ceiling to move away from the the light. I fear that one day I'll turn on the light and then I'll look like Don King. DOES NOT WANT 

Fuck, I wish I was sick again. If I was sick I'd be like, Fuck this rain, I need me some 12+ hours of sleep. Now I won't be able to sleep for fear of being electrocuted to death. Oh, I suppose I could just unplug everything before I go to sleep ... Fuck that, I'm too lazy to do that. I would like to die in my sleep anyway.     
lalallala raindrops keep falling on my head ...
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You tricky bastards, it looks like you shared the same clothing!!
Clara and I spent waaaaay too long trying to figure out wtf band was number 9 in the Guess the JRock Artist Level 2 on Jrock Revolution. We knew for sure that 8 was D'espairsRay because of the music. Then POOF 9 shows up and we're all WTF BAND IS THAT?!? Then I took some screen caps and we were pretty much convinced that both 8 and 9 were D'espairsRay. 

Then we were like WHAT THE HELL WHAT ABOUT DUELJEWEL?! So theeeeen we were thinking 4 was DuelJewel but then I was all NO BISH THAT ARE VIDOLL!! Haha but then I started to doubt myself XD
But this problem was solved thanks to YouTube because I found a clip that showed DuelJewel and two members were sleeveless. We then concluded that 9 was DuelJewel and 4 was really Vidoll.

Below is proof they shared clothing and that they are both NOT D'espairsRay ... @_@

BTW I added the names in the upper left corner ... if the names were already there Clara and I would have had a MUCH easier time trying to figure this shit out.

Note: I'm not really implying that they really did share clothing since I was just basing it off wrist and neck bands. 
This is a JOKE.

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So my brother likes to look at porn at the computer. Which isn't really shocking because he IS a MALE, right? But it's just a bit unnerving to know that I sit in the same chair in which my brother wanks it in. Not only the same chair, but he touches the fucking mouse AND keyboard. LIKE WTF KEEP YOUR PERSONAL JUICES TO YOURSELF AND WHICHEVER HOBAG YOU DECIDE TO BANG! Besides the spermie germies, the pr0nz gives the computer viruses and trojans. Heehee ... Trojans XD Aren't Trojans supposed to stop you from catching things? ... Okay, sorry for the lame word-play, assholes.

Anyway, there was less pr0nz watching on the net once I had a conversations letting him know my suspicions that my grandfather was looking at the porn because I had checked the history. He agreed with me and said that our grandfather did look at porn. I read him some names of the websites, explaining how I knew it was porn WITHOUT actually having to actually go to the site. He tried to get me to click on some of the sites but I was like FUCK NO. What a dumbass, like I'm actually going to click some shit called '' or ''

Since these dumbasses look at porn at the computer it fucked it up. It was running very slow and there was six trojans on it. After having to listen to my grandfather bitch about the computer go slow I told him it was because people visit 'bad sites.' Not sure if he understood this or not, but I didn't want to say PR0NZ in front of my grandmother because she is freaking weird and probably would have thrown holy water (or water heated on the stove -- oh wait she's already done that one to me) on me and tell me not so nicely that I was going to hell JUST for saying porn. 

After getting all the trojans cleared off the computer -- and also after throwing much drama about it with my super awesome acting skills -- the two suspects ceased their porn viewing activities, for about a week. The computer started lagging up again. So I run the clean up program and discovers I gots some adware and one trojan, oh joy. Ever since my brother discovered how to clear the history I had removed the history icon from the top of the tool bar, so now he can't clear it at all, I are genius. Okay, back to the story ... I'm like WTF IS UP WITH THIS SHIT?! WHO'S BEEN LOOKING AT PR0NZ?! I check the history -- remember I are genius and I still know how to check it even with the icon removed -- and I see some of those sites with those ever so lovely names which would not make you think it was porn [/sarcasm].

While I was scrolling down the list to check the names of the sites I had accidentally clicked on one. OH SHIT I guess that's what I get for actually click the down arrow rather than using the scrolly thinger in the middle of the mouse. I hadn't realized it though until the page was like up and I was like OH FUCK WHAT THE SHIT IS THIS?! OMG I'M SO STUPID I ACCIDENTLY CLICKED ONE OF THE THINGS INSTEAD OF THE ARROW AH SHIIIIIIT. Because the shit is JUST THERE and there was no avoiding looking at it and I had seen it my next thought was something like, 'Oh hey, is that two chicks with dicks or is a dude with tits? OH SHIT WHO THE FUCK IS LOOKING AT TRANNIES?!'

After that, I just closed out of explorer, I don't want to know the names of other sites or accidentally click on anymore shit. No offense to transvestites, but it was just weird knowing that my brother or my grandfather (SHIT YOU ARE MARRIED! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE FAITHFUL BECASUE GOD SAYS SO!!!)  was looking at some dick, be it natural or man-constructed. It does not make sense because I know my brother is homophobic.

My grandfather may or not be homophobic ... I mean the man was on the wrestling team in high school, he's rather quite proud of it too. He would always be like, 'I was one the football and wrestling team and I was popular in high school. Which of course I reply with, 'You WERE, that's in the past. It doesn't matter in the future what you were in high school. I also think wrestling is gay. I don't see what's so straight about two guys that are half naked in spandex and groping each other.' This would piss him off, and also shut him up, and that left me free to make my escape out of the room and back to my side of the house.

The same day I found the trannies I ask my brother about it, to which he totally denied it being him. I don't think it was my grandfather because he said he stopped looking at those sites. So, to find the real culprit I placed a password on the computer. At first my grandfather was really pissed off about it because he'd have to have me log him in. My grandmother was also pissed off because you know, she has important things to do and very important matters which require the use of a computer, and that would be ... playing solitaire. WHAT THE FLYING FUCK WOMAN YOU PLAY A FUCKING CARD GAME YOU CAN DO THAT WITH A FUCKING DECK OF CARDS YOU DON'T NEED THE COMPUTER!!! She was really mad about it, she threatened to cut off the electricity in my side of the house if I didn't log her into the computer, which I had never even said that I wasn't. I was actually in the process of logging her onto the computer. But she was too mad and stormed out into another room. Whatever lady, you got your time slot jacked, my computer time now.

The next after I put the password in I had to explain to my grandmother why I put the password on, because people were looking at 'bad sites.' I told her that I think it's my brother and not to let him on. After about three weeks of the password in place, and the computer being brotherless, I saw no more porn sites in the history. I think I solved the tranny mystery, it was my brother.

Know this, and being the bitch that I am, I have to ask him about the trannies. One day while he was at the computer, and it looked like he was getting ready to look at porn too because he had headphones, I asked him if he looked at chicks with dicks or guys with boobs. I was telling him about how I found the tranny site and my thoughts that it was probably guys with boobs. From his reactions I'm assuming he never thought of the possibility of the chicks being guys. He just told me that it was our grandfather that was looking at it. Then I was asking him if he would like it if his ex-girlfriend had a dick. He was telling me that I was sick and that I didn't know what I was talking about and told me to leave. I asked him, 'Why should I leave? So you can look at guys with tits? You really like that? It's okay if you like that. I just thought you wouldn't because you don't like gay people. It's basically the same as looking at gay porn. Because if it's girls with dicks that means they want to be guys. That means you're looking at two guys go at it. Then if it's guys with tits, well they're still guys, but they have tits.' He got the idea I wasn't leaving so he left. I ARE WINNAH!!


Apr. 11th, 2007 11:08 pm
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I haven't blogged about my post-haircut ...
The reason I haven't done it yet is ... because I have no pictures of my hair! I took pictures of myself but it really didn't work out all that well.
My hair went past my waist, it was really long ... maybe even too long  haha   Now my hair barely goes past my shoulders ...
For a long time I wanted to donate my hair. I'm not sure if I really wanted to donate it or I was just using that as an excuse to have my hair grow so long. I know at one point I really wanted to donate it but I just always said that it had to be longer so that I could have long hair too after it was cut. Then I finally figured out that it's just fucking hair, IT WILL GROW BACK! So I stopped being selfish and finally donated my hair.
I really thought I was going to cry while they were cutting it, but I didn't. I guess my hair wasn't really as important to me as I thought it was. It was really easy getting it cut because I didn't feel sad or have regrets about it. My head feels really light though since there is not a lot of hair weighing it down.
I kind of like my hair being short since it's easier to brush. Now I only have to run the brush through the top of my head and all the tangles are gone! Before my hair would tangle RIGHT AFTER I brushed it which really pissed me off, so I always wore my hair up. The only thing that sucks about the short is that ... it can't be styled in a lot of ways! The only two things I could do is like ... have it straight or curly ... it's really kind of boring ... I don't really like how short curly hair looks because the head looks like a mushroom ... it's just really ugly.
Now I want a straight perm and a diagonal fringe like Kisaki's. I also think I want my hair color to be darker .. Sometimes when I don't brush my hair it looks like Klaha's hair when he was in Malice Mizer ... but crappy looking ...


Kiasaki from Phantasmagoria

Klaha in Malice Mizer

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Right now I am sick S I C K sssssiiiiiiicccckkk
My throat hurts like a bitch. It hurts most when I swallow. It hurts when I don't swallow. It hurts when it is not doing a single fucking thing. Although, it hurts less when I talk and it's really ironic because when people hear me talking they tell me to stop talking and assume that it's really painful for me to talk. The good thing is that I've finally stopped feeling light headed and shit, maybe I can catch my pimpah tonight.

My internet has been having mood swings the past week! A few days ago it refused to work unless I reset the router and restarted my computer. A couple days ago my internet just crashed. Since I have AOL I tried to use the dial-up. I was able to get online for a couple minutes, literally, only to be kicked off. After being kicked off some message popped up saying that I don't have dial-up provided to me because I'm not registered for it. Whatever, that's cool, dial-up sucks anyway so that means I have to get on Verizon's ass to fix my DSL.
I do some homework because I have school the next day and I decide that I will do my internet assignments later. I call tech support and I'm on hold for about half an hour. WTF HALF AN HOUR?! I hang up, decide to call back in an hour and do more homework. An hour later ... I call and this time I'm hold for about 45 minutes ... During the time I was on hold I was getting this message about every 3 minutes telling me that my approximate wait was five minutes. When I do finally get someone to talk to MY PHONE DIES! AH SHIT! So I decide to ... you guessed it! DO. MORE. HOMEWORK.
I attempt calling again, third time is a charm you know. I'm on hold for about 45 minutes again, with the same five minute message shit again ... I'm on the phone with tech support person for about an hour and the problem was ... well they couldn't figure out the problem. According to the tests they ran, I was getting the signal from Verizon and there was nothing wrong with my lines. They told me that if my internet did not come back up within two days to call again. In conclusion, my internet was up and running twelve hours later, yay! Since I was sick I didn't really use my internet.

Those are the two major things I am emo right now, internet bitchiness and being sick.
Now on to the minor things ...

Birthday Issues:
It was recently my birthday and now I am XX years old ... which makes me really sad. This also pisses me off because my mom didn't even come by on birthday. She could have sent me a birthday card. She sent my brother some money and clothes on his birthday last month ... where be mah loot?! Hell, she didn't even have to send me a card, it could have been a piece of toilet paper that said "Happy Birthday" written with some unknown substance. My mom also had plans to go out a week after my birthday to go out and do something for HER FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY. WTF THINK OF THE CHIRREN! I COME FIRST MEEEEEEE *pushes skank out of the way* It was my birthday first ... well not technically since her friend is older, but day wise mine was first and my mom has known me longer ...

Financial Issues:
I need one of those things that has three letters in it and starts with a J because I need money. Screw the job, I just plain need money. My mom owes me $200 (OZ 256.36), and my brother owes me $175 (OZ 224.31). I also spent $165 (OZ 211.50) in the course of a week ... fuuuuuuck I also owe my friends money since we took sticker pictures and I feel like I owe them some money but they said it was fine ... I think I also have to do taxes this year FUCK I ONLY HAD I JOB FOR ONE FUCKING MONTH IT'S NOT WORTH THE TIME!

Issues cause I say they're issues Issues:
I recently bought two magazines, volume 41 and 37 of Cure. When I'm looking through this magazine it makes me really emo for a couple reasons:
1. I cannot read it because it is in Japanese.
2. All the stick thin J-rockers make me feel more fat than I already am.
3. The magazines were so expensive for being magazines!

I am so behind in my school work ... I have about two months left to complete 25 units of crap I don't even know WHAT I have left to finish blaaah I also didn't turn in the required amount of work from last or this month so I may be kicked out SHIT I was unable to catch up this month because I got sick and I wasn't able to go in on my scheduled day or the make-up-work day I AM SCREWED

I had my interview for the Germany shit ... I hope they don't find my blog ... good thing I gave them my hotmail address and not my AOL address ... The interview was over the phone and I was so nervous! I had never done a phone interview before. I'm sure I would have done much better if it was person. I really hate phones ... they're so ... blah and I was on speaker phone ... which I also hate ... I had to ask them to repeat what they said sometimes because I really can't understand what people say when they are on speaker phone. On a couple of questions they asked I replied with, "I'm not really sure." Yeah ... great answer ... I suck ...

My grandpa is having surgery on the 15th or 18th ... I'm not sure because my grandma sucks at relaying information ... Okay so this isn't really something that's making me emo I only put it here to add for dramatic effect >.< I really don't care about the surgery ...

Vic Mignogna is going to be doing Fai's voice! WTF NOOO HE'S GOING TO RUIN THE GAYNESS OF FAI! On the other hand ... serves him right! Do research on characters that you're auditioning for. Even though CLAMP will leave the Fai and Kurogane relationship obscure, it is so there, if not, then there is always King Ashura. Ashura and Fai so had something going on, or else Fai wouldn't have been so emo about sealing up Ashura. There was also a part where they had gone to a different world and the other Ashura kissed Yasha. That part was sad ... they (Ashura and Yasha) were lovers but they couldn't be together because their followers didn't believe the same things ... but yeah ... The geiness in Tsubasa Chronicle will be gone since Vic is on the cast ... At least the gei will only be missing from the English version!

The end!

Note to Shorty: FUJI PWNS

Speaking of Fuji ... Okay fine, forget it, the post is long enough. -__- meanies ...

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Okay you bitches and hoes I am back with part three!

These are seriously becoming harder to rant about, why? Because most of the secrets are the same. 

Ex: "I cry myself to sleep everytime I think of you because I can't believe I let what we had go."
"I still love you even though I know you're with someone else."
"I don't think I'm pretty enough for you even though you tell me I'm pretty"
Those ain't real secrets, they're just example shits, but they're so fucking annoying! It's either about love, cutting, being fat, being anorexic, or wanting to be sexed up. 

This issue really doesn't really contain any rants if you were looking forward to me calling people I don't know fucktards and bitches it's not really happening. Most of these are secrets from people that desperately need to get laid and are too horny. The others not about needing to getting are secrets that I thought were funny. Intro -out. 

WTF ... this isn't a secret! This is a panel from a webcomic! I forgot the name of it, and I lost the link ... but when I remember I'll come back and put it in. 

Maybe it will turn into love after you've bedded them. 

"At my cousin's wedding tow years ago, as the priest said, 'speak now or forever hold you peace,' I had this urge to scream out, 'no Jon! Don't marry her! Marry me!'
I don't know why. I'm not attracted to him, and up until a few months before the wedding I was convinced that Jon didn't like me."

Good thing you didn't or else you'd have looked like an asshole.

"Sometimes i think I'm crazy because i have a feeling that i am really someone special who will save the world when it's almost too late.
I think I'm meant for something greater than this ... either that or I'm insane."

Everyone feels, or has felt, the same way to a certain extent. People are constantly trying to figure out life's meaning. That's why we have/had all them damned philosophers. But I so totally feel the same way. I feel like I'm the next virgin Mary or something. 

"I hate my cousin for the things my grandparents have been able to experience with her. They've been there to see her graduate from high school, college, get married to her high school sweetheart, and now give birth to her second son.
I'll be lucky if they live to see my high school graduation next year.
I know it's not her fault she's nine years older than me, but I still resent her for it."

GAH! Another stupid one! I'm am going to try and cut this down rant to be sweet and short because I know that if I say all the things I want it'd be chaos. This is sooooo fucking stupid it's not even funny. I think this person should just be happy by the fact that their grandparents have been in their life while they were growing up. Some people don't even have any living grandparents. Just be thankful and shut the fuck up. If you want to blame anyone, blame your parents for waiting so long to have you. Or blame your grandparents for having your parents too late. 

I just find the secrets where people wish they were raped, or that something bad had happened to them are really funny. I don't know why, but it's just funny. I don't even want to start thinking of the problems this person must have, so I'm stepping off the train at Humorsville. 

"I create absurd situations and fantasies in my head. Now I'm hoping some of them come true. For example, I imagine myself to be in a purely sexual relationship ... except that we both hate each other. Even though I'm a virgin and I've never had a relationship with any guy. And I'm so lonely I wish it were real."

Okay, LMAO ... this is just too funny, yet fucked up. See, I create absurd situations, but I use them for the movies I will make when I become a movie director. But for shit, people need to stop being so damned horny. Go out find a guy who's desperate for some sleep on too. I'm pretty sure any guy would be willing to take up your offer on a purely sexual relationship. It's called "friends with benefits." Then the fact that you're a virgin, that's woah extra brownie points. 

Just thought this was kinda funny ... 

LMAO  The reason why you may think it's "sexy" is because you think it resembles a phallus.

Ha ha, okay my first thought was, "Woah, them condoms look like nipples for baby bottles." then my other thought was, "Do they really come in that many colors?"

"I would gladly do or give anything to have sex with my best friend, Even though he lives across the country and I am currently in a relationship.
Not only that, but I'd have sex with my other friend too. Just because she's told me she's a virgin and I have a thing for virgins even if they're not exactly my type."

Hmm ... seems like I found someone for the virgin who just wants sex.

"When my brother and I were younger we played house in my neighbors backyard were not even the neighbors could see us. We used a cinderblock as a toilet & never cleaned it up."

OMG! HA HA   NOW THAT IS A SECRET! I mean come on! Little kids shitting in their neighbor's yard. That's funny! If I did that I know for shit I would not even tell anyone about that. But I supposed it'd be fun if it was just me an my brother and we're like drinking or something and be like, "Hey, remember the days when we'd shit in that cinder block?" I don't blame you for not cleaning it up. I wouldn't have cleaned it up either. They neighbors probably thought it was a stray dog or something. But man, this is a great secret. Ha ha cinder block ... ha ha 

"I hope I one day get the oppurtunity to FART
In an elevator full of people."

I see you have big ambitions and dream for yourself.
This reminded me of Kairi LOL 

The end of Secrets Part III ... Will there be a part IV? *eerie music plays*
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I believe the title pretty much explains itself. 

Then you won't care if I tell you to stop being a bitter ass bitch. Whatever your problem is you need to get the stick out of your ass.
This is the kind of person that is never happy for anyone. Then when good things happen for themselves they'll ignore it and are constantly thinking they're so fucked over. Then they wonder why no one likes them. Yeah, I don't like romance and shit, as long as it ain't in my fucking movies or books.

That is the most stanking pile of crap I have ever smelled. Usually when you put "I'd rather ..." YOU MAKE A FOKING COMPARISION! So what? You'd rather sleep with a guy who ain't packing as opposed to? You mustn't be THAT terrified of having sex if you thought out the whole situation and figured out you're going to be sleeping with an Asian guy. 

"I planned to commit suicide on prom night simply to make everyone else feel sorry for making my life miserable and never caring about me. I want to ruin their memories of their special night, simply because I was jealous they'd be out having the time of their lives while I, being the school's official loser, would be home alone, as usual. I never went through with it, but I often fantasize about what would happen if I did." 

Too bad you didn't, or else I wouldn't have read your shit. If people don't like you then there is something wrong with YOU. People who want everyone to like them change themselves so that people will like them. If you don't feel like "conforming" don't complain about how no one likes you! If you're going to be a bitch, grow some balls and accept the consequences that comes with being a bitch. After I write all this I AM NOT going to go in the corner of my room and start cutting my wrist just because some people will think I'm a bitch. I am fully aware of what I am typing and how I'm coming off AND I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK AS TO WHAT THE HELL THESE PEOPLE THINK THAT ARE READING THIS! Basically this is for MY entertainment because I don't feel like completing any of the work that needs to be done. Another reason why I wrote this is because that foking hor Shorty likes to stalkerz on mah LJ. 

"I tell myself I'm not worth anything or anyone and I believe myself. I think I'm fat. I don't believe anyone when they tell me they love me. I'm VERY insecure. I fantasize about my friends in sexual ways. My boyfriend and my friends think I live a happy and normal life when in reality I want to pull my hair out and cry like a baby. I don't to move away and grow up but I don't want to stay here ..."

Something new ... this person HAS a boyfriend and they're still emoing ... I'm somewhat confused ... Well, if they have to fantasize about their friends in sexual ways their boyfriend is probably just not boning them. The reason why they're not getting boned? Because they are fat (fyi I ain't calling this person fat because they said so themselves that they think they are fat). You don't need a boyfriend to go have sex. Go stand on the corner of a street in a short skirt, a revealing shirt, five inch heels, with ten coats of mascara, blue eye shadow, and red lipstick on your face. 

I do too. I'm practicing for when I become famous so I can tell anecdotes about my life in interviews. 

... I cannot stress on how much people are so stupid ... First off, this person is stupid for even touching heroin. Heroin is highly addictive and a no-no drug. Second, this person is likely to complain about bad things happening to them because they are a heroin addict. Third, this person will only recognize that they are an addict but will never go on to the next step. This is most likely the type of person who blames all of life's problems on their addiction. Like why they don't have a job. Ever hear of Equal Opportunities bitch? The reason why you can't keep a job is yourself. Don't blame heroin. You chose to do it and you became addicted. IT'S ALL ON YOU. 

Shit man ... You mean all I had to do was hold someone's hand and I could have gotten my pay on?     Again ... people need to stop caring so much about what everyone else thinks. If someone calls you names without just reason it just means that they are jealous! Jealously is almost like flattery, but people say mean things instead of nice things. 

I hope it's love as in care for and not love as in lust ... 

This made me laugh XP 

You think I'm going to bag on that? WELL YOU GUESSED WRONG! This isn't stupid and night lights pwn. I had one in my room so I didn't trip over things in the middle of the night. I don't have one any more because my new room is smaller and it makes too much light.
Secret installment numero duex, oust. BOOYAH BITCH I'M MULTILINGUAL! 

I'm surprised that I got the second one out so soon. This is actually kind of fun ... I seriously LOVE to bitch. To bitch about how stupid people are that is. But for shit, I like to bitch about how much things piss me off. It's really fun and good way to vent. I supposed it's a form of relieving stress. So I thank these people for writing such stupid crap so that I can bitch about how stupid they are. Not all of the secrets I choose to put on here make me bitch. Most of the ones where I don't bitch made me laugh. Stay tuned for issue three!
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Okay ... so I'm really foking bored ... like REALLY REALLY FOKING BORED!
I was lucky enough AND unfortunate enough to find secrets from anonymous people.

Some of these secrets are really funny, but like with every thing good there is bad. So that means ... THAT SOME OF THESE ARE THE MOST FOKING STUPIDEST THINGS THAT I HAVE EVER READ! Okay, all of these secrets are text on a picture ... and some dipshits put hard to read text ... therefore I will type out most of these instead of linking pictures ... I'm pretty sure this subject will span for a couple of days ...
So without further adieu ... on with the secreting ...

This one made me laugh.

"I have an imaginary boyfriend.
He's like my guardian angel. He talks to me when I'm lonely ... and can always make me smile when I'm sad. He's my best friend in the whole world ... and so much more. He's perfect in every way. I am so in love with him.
I don't want anyone else in the whole world. If only he was real ... I've convinced myself that we'll meet someday, because we're meant to be together. No one else knows about him ...
The worst part is ... I'm turning 21 next month."

... You know ... I have TOO much to say about this ... I'm not even going to start with how stupid this sounds ... just GAH PEOPLE ARE SO FOKING STUPID! Now I hope some of you dipshit mother fuckers understand why some MOST people piss me the FUCK OFF GAH! NEXT FUCKING SECRET! Dicks man ... just complete fucking dicks ... (btw ... cussing is my way of venting it really does wonders try it some time)

I just LOVE this one!

"Every time I masturbate, I feel a pain I can't describe.
Is it pleasure from an orgasm?
Or guilt from a sin?"

You're probably just doing it wrong ...

That's no secret. That's a fan-syndrome.

"Sometimess ... I WISH that I had some fatal disease ...
Just so I could see who CARES."

Everyone likes you when you're gonna die. You know why? CAUSE YOU'RE GONNA DIE! I'm pretty sure they'll forget about you in a few years after you've died. But if you died, you wouldn't be able to see who cares. If you want attention, go run down the street naked. Better yet, go try committing suicide, be hospitalized from blood loss. Oooor go become anorexic or bulimic, get all malnourished and be hospitalized. Go for Anorexia or bulimia, cause I'm pretty sure the reason people don't care about you is because you're 20 pounds over weight (this is total sarcasm for you dipshits that wouldn't know sarcasm even if it came up and pissed right into your cereal in front of your face). At least with a suicide attempt or an eating disorder you'd be alive to see who cares.

"I'm scared I will lose my twin sister when we die. We have agreed to die together. But I don't think that we will be able to stay with each other afterwards."

Sister complex? Are you a devil worshipper or something? The other way around?
This is the type of person that pisses me off ... worry about your problems at hand instead of worrying and emoing about the oh so ever mysterious future that you will have. You may die tomorrow and you spent all of yesterday emoing about you and your sister not being together after death. Way to go dick-fuck.

Ha ha, that picture with that secret ... just priceless man.

If this is a picture of a girl ... it looks like a guy due to the shadowing
yayness for pseudo-wang ... maybe pseudo ... o.O

"PIERCINGS ARE MY LIFE. If you don't have them I wont even look at you."

I guess you won't be looking at me in public then ...
if you get my drift ...

"My boyfriend of two years lives five states away and we've never met."

This is another one of the things where I have SO MUCH I want to say ... but I can't because I don't even want to waste my time getting into it ...

Okay ... I think that's enough for the first installment ...

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So yeah ... what is this shit about this time? FOKING MARCHING BANDS!
Yeah, the tournament was on Saturday ... and I post now.

Few things first ... I know it was the first tournament of the season for all the bands participating. But I do know for a fact that it was NOT the FIRST PERFORMANCE. Marching bands perform during half time at the football games. If they don't, then that means they were shit to begin with and they are not even good enough for football games so why the fuck even go to a tournament? I also know that because it is the first tournament that not all the drill would be complete, and that the colorguard would not have all their work down. So ... Now onto what I think of the bands ...

Bishop Amat: I liked the fact that they actually rolled their feet and had white shoes too. That's pretty much all I noticed ... Small band 1A, could barely hear them. I remember first thinking FOK SO THAT'S WHAT A SMALL BAND SOUNDS LIKE?! The guard had pretty flags ... and I think that's pretty much it for that band ...

Locke: OMG WTF IS THIS SHIT?! I could NOT get over the fact that this band absolutely had NO PIT! Drum set and a keyboard does not qualify as a pit for me ... The keyboard overpowered the band, and the keyboard player kinda sucked ... They paused on like every single foking note ... The person on the drum set was good, that grabbed all my attention, until I saw someone move at a stand still then my attention was brought back to the band.
Again ... OMG WTF IS THE SHIT?! The spacing, horrible ... it made me want to cry T___T The marching, horrible ... It was just complete crap. I know many people don't actually lateral slide ... and I saw some people that TRIED ... but dood don't try to lateral slide if no one else isn't doing it ... you just gave away that you were supposed to lateral slide ... and yet you weren't even fully lateral sliding! I know some band directors say "Don't lateral slide on this part." It only works if everyone DOESN'T lateral slide or even half assed lateral slide ... don't even get me start on their color gaurd ... OMG ... NEXT BAND PLEASE ...

Not everything was horrible about this band ...
I did like their uniforms ... They had a F on it
with some other crap and it reminded me of
the f holes on a violin ...

Mt. View and Whittier: I don't remember much about these two performances ... all I know was that my ass was starting to hurt from sitting on those crappy bleachers for like an hour ... but I know that one of these bands played part of Incantation from Cirque du Soleil's Quidam ... I was really sad that they only played the opener of the song.

Covina: I don't remember this performance at all ...

Wilson: FINALLY! AN ACTUAL BAND! I was SOOOO happy to see Wilson perform. They were the best band that I had seen so far that day. The color guard was actually together! The band actually made formations and sounded like a band! I was just soooo overjoyed at not seeing crap that I forgot to actually pay attention! I was also distracted by the flags and costume of the color guard, it was all flowy and pretty. I do remember at the beginning there was a solo guard performer that was dancing and their hair piece fell off XP

Los Altos: OMG EVEN BETTER! Their show was really fun. It was exciting and sounded great. The color guard had some funky costume, but it's all good.

Rowland: WOOOAAAH 5A band ... I thought their show was pretty good ... the end. I was distracted about my ass hurting again ...

Host band: Only played the opener, but man it was good. They looked good, and the sounded good. Though, it wasn't exciting at all and I know the reasons for that.
1. having to work all day because the were hosting the tournament
2. McKenna probably said crap about their performance at the football game
3. it was in honor of a band booster parent that had passed away
My one complaint ... WTF CLARINET DUET?! I could NOT HEAR them AT ALL This pissed me off ... Why? Because I have heard clarinet SOLOIST play LOUDER than the BOTH of them ... you know what was worse? THERE ACTUALLY WAS A CLARINET SOLOIST FROM ANOTHER BAND THAT PLAYED LOUDER THAN THE BOTH OF THEM THAT DAY!

Now that I have written this I've just remembered all the other crap ... GAWD I CAN GO ON! But because I really don't want to remember the rest of the shit I saw I won't go back and add things in ...

If anyone cares, these were the scores:

CLASS 1A Bands
50.75 Bishop Amat
41.40 Locke
45.6 Bishop Amat
36.4 Locke

CLASS 2A Bands
60.95 Mt View
54.75 Whittier
54.2 Mt View
42.0 Whittier

72.05 Glen A Wilson
63.00 Covina
55.8 Los Altos
42.3 Covina

71.25 Rowland
53.6 Rowland

74.4 Rowland
60.7 Los Altos
55.5 Whittier

Auxiliary - 61.7 Glen A Wilson
Percussion - 76.0 Glen A Wilson
Visual - 144 Glen A Wilson
G.E. - 259 Los Altos
Music - 336 Los Altos
BAND - 73.80 Los Altos


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