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KOALA ISN'T GOING ANYWHERE
So right now I just got an email regarding my status of going to Germany. Since I've been logged onto MSN for a while I got a new email notification.
It's strange ... I though for sure that I was going but I guess not ... maybe I was too cocky about the whole thing. But this is what the email said:
"Dear Applicant:
A decision has been made on your application for the Congress Bundestag Youth Exchange Program for the 2007-2008 year. Please see the attached letter to check your decision status. Contact me immediately if you are unable to open the document attached to this email. If you have any questions about the decision, please contact: blahblah (contact information has been cut)"
Right ... so I looked at the name of the file "CYBXNotificationLetter2.pdf" ... notice the "Letter2" portion of the file name ...
The funny thing is ... just as I was checking email the song The Final by Dir en Grey started playing ...
After my interview that I had two week ago they said that they would contacting people who applied in the weeks of early April. I kind of knew not to expect any good news since it is not April and they're contacting me ahead of time. Then there was that "Letter2" part of the file name then The Final started playing ... signs of bad omens ... Just as I suspected ... I only read the first line of the letter saying that I was not chosen and I stopped reading it. Yup ... that's it ... the. end. no. Germany.
I have more stuff that I want to type about my thoughts and feelings about this but I fear that this blog entry will be emo LOL ... and I'm also too lazy to type the rest of what I want to type XP and now I am reminded why I rarely do blog entries, takes too much effort lol
FOK Now I need to tell my mom and my grandparents and all my lame ass friends who don't read my blog that I wasn't accepted -__- fucking bums READ MAH BLOG!
Here are lyrics translations and a link so that you can listen to The Final so that you lame people who don't listen to Dir en Grey can understand the nature of the song and why it's really ironic that it started playing just as I opened up that email lalala click on the title of the song for the link to download
The intention is clear, I stare, with this left hand, unable
to be worded
Every time I bleed, there lies the reason to live ... And I
discover words being so vivid and bright
Even loved ones scatter like petals from flowers in my hand
So even if I engraved the meaning that I lived in my hand, it
will only be known as flowers of vanity
The Final
One by one it multiplies ... why be a sad bait?
Deep within the hell of my heart ... I can't go back
A self-torture loser, not being able to see tomorrow
Suicide is the proof of life
Even loved ones scatter like petals from flowers in my hand
So even if I engraved the meaning that I lived in my hand, it
will only be known as flowers of vanity
So I can't live
What's lost can't be born again
A song that's not even seeking the proof of living
Let's put an end ... The Final
Let's bloom flowers of attempted suicide.
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Well! I think you deserve better. Maybe going to Germany wasn't big or special enough for you. <3 You need something far more grand, and I hope you'll discover that something soon.
[This is very random, and very out of place, but... The Final = <3! Despite it being all sad, suicide-y, and stuff. >_<]
FEEL BETTER! Here's something to cheer you up:
<3 I forgot where I found it, but it was in my folder of Diru pictures. <3
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Thank you for trying to comfort me lol but I did post this blog like RIGHT when I was reading the email ... I'm over the whole thing now. I'm REALLY relieved because I now know that I can go right into college and shit and stuff ... lol
Now Moi dix Mois can perform any time this year now! Whoo
One of my first thoughts after I was rejected was, "THERE BETTER BE SOME J-ROCK CONCERTS HERE!" lol
So yeah ... I'm not really sad but I'm really surprised I didn't cry or something lol
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oz pwns germany any day foo! coz oz has MEEEEEEEEEEEEE! and i pwn...seriously pwn.
zomg! today i was watching tv in the morning and they were like americans say awesome like i dunno how to type it but yeah you should know and australians say awesome as 'ore-some' LOL i never realised that XD it was interesting so yes IMMA EMO COZ YOU BE DITCHING MAH ASS NOW
*EMOS*
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OMG ... FOK Like I think Oreo's hair be a bit longer than mine -__-
the person was like saying she was going to cut my hair to like my shoulder blade and ARRR SHE MADE IT SHORTER THAN THAT!
Oh well I really don't care how short my hair is just as long as I gots me some hair but it pisses me off cause of all the layers and it's too short to properly tie up -__- I have to use a hair clip but some hair falls out blaaah
I'll blog later about mah new hair after I've taken some pics
ANYWHOOO Yeah, I'm kinda happy I'm not going to Germany XP
I tried to blog without an emo tone coming across >.< I guess I failed at that though lol
Now I can get a job then go to college and shit lol and trade that fucking ugly van in for something smaller fucking piece of shit car ASLAKJSLASJ