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I'm going to be gone this whole weekend. My mom is having me take some test for the state. I don't even know why she wants me to take it. I have to hear her baw about how the state cut two days of pay every month. This test is for the position of an Office Assistant.

I don't even know why they have people take a test for the position of an Office Assistant. Unless they've had morons apply before? All I know about the test is that it's some easy stuff. I'm pretty sure a 7th grader could pass it. That's another thing, my mom is telling me to study for the test. I'm like alskdjlakjsdlk how the hell do I study for some test I know nothing about.

I don't remember anything telling me about what would on the test during the application process. I just know that when my mom was preparing to take her Office Technician (this is next level from Office Assistant) test she stole my high school exit exam study guides. Not like I needed them because an 8th grader is able to pass that test and we take it in 10th.

Anyway, I'm just more like wtf over this whole test business. I've tried doing what my mom has told me before. She told me to apply for Six Flags, I did. I was hired on the spot and then I get the news that they're only open on the weekend in the fall and winter. Now I'm going to take this test, pass, and then I won't hear anything back about job position until like 3 months for now. My mom told me that it takes 4 to 6 weeks to get the results back from the test. This whole thing is ridiculous.

I think the real reason why I'm bothered about this whole thing is that we're staying at her friend's house for two nights. It's going to be extremely awkward. Then my mom is telling me that if a position opens up near where her friend lives and I get hired that I could move in with him so I'll be closer. That's just really really really weird.

I'm thinking my mom just wants to get rid of me or something, which she can't. Believe me, I'm in the same boat as her. I want to GTFO out of this place but I can't because I have to baby sit my mom. I can't fucking wait until I get to move back to my grandparents' house. What would be even better would be getting an apartment with my friends. The latter is probably never going to happen but I can dream!

So right now I just got an email regarding my status of going to Germany. Since I've been logged onto MSN for a while I got a new email notification.
It's strange ... I though for sure that I was going but I guess not ... maybe I was too cocky about the whole thing. But this is what the email said:

"Dear Applicant:

A decision has been made on your application for the Congress Bundestag Youth Exchange Program for the 2007-2008 year. Please see the attached letter to check your decision status. Contact me immediately if you are unable to open the document attached to this email. If you have any questions about the decision, please contact: blahblah (contact information has been cut)"

Right ... so I looked at the name of the file "CYBXNotificationLetter2.pdf" ... notice the "Letter2" portion of the file name ...

The funny thing is ... just as I was checking email the song The Final by Dir en Grey started playing ...

After my interview that I had two week ago they said that they would contacting people who applied in the weeks of early April. I kind of knew not to expect any good news since it is not April and they're contacting me ahead of time. Then there was that "Letter2" part of the file name then The Final started playing ... signs of bad omens ... Just as I suspected ... I only read the first line of the letter saying that I was not chosen and I stopped reading it. Yup ... that's it ... the. end. no. Germany.


I have more stuff that I want to type about my thoughts and feelings about this but I fear that this blog entry will be emo LOL ... and I'm also too lazy to type the rest of what I want to type XP and now I am reminded why I rarely do blog entries, takes too much effort lol
FOK Now I need to tell my mom and my grandparents and all my lame ass friends who don't read my blog that I wasn't accepted -__- fucking bums READ MAH BLOG!


Here are lyrics translations and a link so that you can listen to The Final so that you lame people who don't listen to Dir en Grey can understand the nature of the song and why it's really ironic that it started playing just as I opened up that email lalala click on the title of the song for the link to download

Too lazy to type some stupid intro crap about the confessions ... so here you go


I confess that ...
... I once cheated on a spelling test in second grade -- the word was 'elephant.'
-- There was a book sitting on my desk that had 'elephant' in the title. Coincidences like that shouldn't go to waste.
... I was never able to brush my hair on my own until I ten years old.
-- Lie
... my favorite part of the day is going to sleep so that I can dream.
-- My dreams kick ass.
... if I ever become a script writer/writer I would write about my dreams.
-- Hell yeah, see the above.
... deep down inside I'm really an attention whore.
-- As much as I don't want to admit this one, I reall do think this is true. Deep down inside everyone there is a little space (or big space cause some people really love attention) that wants attention.
... I consider myself to have less than 15 friends/best friends.
-- True true true. I don't even think I can name 10 friends.
... Gwen Stefani taught me how to spell 'bananas.'
-- Another one that I don't really want to confess to, but it's true.
... I hate MySpace.
-- Confession
... I hate blogging.
-- Confession
... I want to be a psychologist because my patients would be a source of amusement.
-- This is a half confession. I wouldn't really spend half of my life just so that I can obtain a degree to hear people bitch about their lives, that's what livejournal and another other type of blogging sites are for. But if I were to become a psychologist, that would be the reason. I wouldn't do it to help people. God, I'm such a horrible person >.<
... I would marry for money.
-- Money, me likey.
... my dream career is to be a fashion designer.
-- Confession
... I am currently obsessed with Final Fantasy XII.
-- When I made this, yes. At the moment, no. No, you're not going to know what my current obsession is now.
... I used to hate someone that I now consider my best friend.
-- It wasn't necessarily hate ... more of a dislike. Hate makes this confession sound more dramatic.
... half of my friends piss me off most of the time.
-- Half a confession. People, in general, just piss me off. My friends are people so unfortunately they piss me off, sometimes. I think I get more pissed at the fact that I don't know why they piss me off.
... I love to complain.
-- *BITCH* *BITCH* *BICTH*
... I'm a hypocrite.
-- Aren't we all?
... I'm really happy that I changed schools.
-- Half confession, depends on my mood.
... one of my motives for applying for that scholarship to Germany is so that my family would miss me.
-- Maybe? I'd like to know the answer to this too! I don't even know why I want to go Germany. Oh wait, I remembered now. I get an extra year before I have to go college!
... I licked the tops of the soda cans that my grandmother drinks.
--- This is one is kind of gross, right? Well, I only did this once. I got one of the sodas she drinks and licked the top of it and stuck it in the fridge. Then I got thirsty and I just washed it off and ended up drinking it instead.